Today didn’t go as planned… and that’s ok

 

Today started like normal. Early. Tired. Up with my iced black coffee and tall water. I turned on my audio Bible and started working out upstairs while my kids were asleep. 

I planned to get ready, get makeup on, hair done, clothes on besides what I slept in. But the baby kept needing me to nurse her and hold her… and that’s ok. 

Once the babies were up I went outside to walk and pray and chat with my hubby like most mornings. But then one of my older kids needed me for the next few hours due to unexpected health things… and that’s ok.

When I was going to get ready late afternoon, another kid needed to talk through some hard things they are processing… and that’s ok.

And now I’m holding a sleeping baby after nursing her to sleep, still undone for the day and unable to get to anything else… and that’s ok.

Something grief taught me was that the things we think matter so much don’t actually matter in light of eternity. The things that truly matter most are our relationship with God and the relationships we have with the precious ones God has given us to raise and disciple in our home. (As well as our spouse)

I want our home to be safety to our children, healing, peaceful, unrushed conversations, centered on Jesus, full of lots of stories of scripture and the testimonies of God, memorial stones built throughout our hearts and home of the faithfulness of God. 

I’ve had seasons of distractions, anxiety, rushed days and overwhelm and it carried over to my children in ways I didn’t like. 

I want the Holy Spirit to invade throughout our home, touching every soul and ruling the culture of our hearts. Everyday I pray over our home, our property, our children, my husband. I ask the Lord to reveal and uproot anything that’s not of Him and to clear it out. Nothing in this life is worth sacrificing our relationship with God over. I want His presence. I pray like Moses did often… “show me Your glory, Lord”

I’ve been a mama 20 years and I’ve experienced in all 20 years the reality spoken of in Isaiah that says of God, “He gently leads those with young”…

The Lord has gently led me all these years. So even on days that go unplanned, I remind myself that it’s all ok.